Sins of the Past
By: LisaMarie, Tanya, Lyss, and
Jen
Part One:
She heard the knock on the door, looking at
the clock, 11:45 at night, 'Who could it be at this hour?' she wondered. She
walked down the stairs, tying her robe as she went. She turned on the porch
light and looked through the window. She opened the door and smiled, "Bo what
are you doing here?"
He stood there, his tie loosened, his shirt
wrinkled, looking at her, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come." He turned to
leave.
Nora laid a hand on his arm as he started to
walk away, "No, Bo. Please stay..."
He turns around and looks at her; the
concern and caring evident in her eyes, "I just...I just got in my car; and
somehow I ended up here."
"Its okay, come in." She takes his arm and
pulls him into the house, closing the door behind him. Her hand slides down to
take his hand in hers as she silently leads him to the couch. He looks down at
their intertwined hands and back up into her eyes, and he smiled. They sat down
side by side on the couch. "I'm here for you, Bo. Anything you need just ask.
I've been told I'm a pretty good listener.”
He ran his free hand through his hair as he
leaned back into the couch, "Nora, I've been driving around for hours, a million
thoughts going through my head...most of them leading me here to you."
She just stared at him, "Thoughts of me?
What do you mean?"
He sighed and then looked at her, his heart
racing as he was about to say the words, "Ever since Gabrielle broke off our
engagement, I've been thinking a lot about what happened after Drew died. What I
put you through."
She swallowed, as the tears came to her
eyes, unsure of what to say. He reached up with his free hand to wipe away the
tears, "Nora, please don't cry. I've always hated it when you cry."
"Bo, why are you bringing this all up now?
It's done and over with. It's in the past."
"Because I realized tonight what I did to
you, when Drew died, pushing you away," he looks away, "I felt like I was
falling down this deep dark hole and I didn't want to bring you with me."
Nora just stood up with tears falling and
walked over to turn on the radio; needing background noise to cut the tension in
the room. She started crying even harder when the mournful strains of “When A
Man Loves a Woman” filled the room
He walks over and places a hand on her
shoulder, the music playing in the background suddenly making it easier for them
to connect. Music had always been they’re connection. She turned around and
faced him.....
"I was your wife, Bo. I would've gone
through anything with you, even the darkest place.”
“Bo," his name caught in her throat, as he put his arms around her pulling her
close.
"Shhh Red, just listen." She rested her head
on his shoulder as he began gliding them across the room.
Nora lifted her head off of Bo's shoulder
and looked him in the eye, "You know I've always felt safe in your arms." He
pulls her tighter to him as he runs his fingers absentmindedly through her hair
"I'm sorry for pushing you away so long ago.
I wish we could stop time and turn it all around, go back to where we were five
years ago. I would've never gotten on that boat. I would've trusted that our
love could get me through anything as long as we went through it together."
"You weren't the only one who stopped
trusting in our love Bo, I should have trusted that you would have come back for
me, for us.....but I was so scared....to this day, I know that if I didn't have
Matthew I would've.." he put his fingers to her lips silencing her.
The song on the radio changes to “Will You
Still Love Me Tomorrow” and they both smile at each other and they laugh as he
twirls her around...She ends up back in his arms, her head resting on his chest,
the pace of their movements no longer matching the pace of the music. She looks
up at him, their eyes locking, "Bo...I'm serious when I tell you that without
Matthew I don't think I could've survived these past five years. He helped me
get through the pain; well he's made it bearable at least."
"I'm sorry Red, I'm really, really sorry, I
know that doesn't even begin to cover all the pain I caused you, but I'm just
not sure what else to do, what else to say." He pulls her tighter to him,
inhaling the scent of her hair.
She looks at him sadly, "There’s nothing
more to say about that. What's done is done and all we can do now is just come
to terms with all of it and move on..."
"And that's exactly what I want to do, Red",
she smiles at the nickname and lays her hand on his cheek as he continues to
speak, "I want to see what the future holds for us, Nora. We'll take it one day at a time, okay?"
She nods, "Are you sure this is what you
want, because I don't think," she hesitates, looking in his eyes, seeing all the
love he has for her there," no, I know I can't live through losing you again,"
Bo smiles softly at Nora, "It's what I want,
plain and simple. Most people don't ever have a chance at a love like ours and
here we are being given a second chance...we'd be fools to pass it up."
"I've wanted this exact thing for months
now," his eyebrows raise in curiosity. She looks down suddenly embarrassed by
what she was about to admit. "Ever since the night Troy attacked me, I knew the
old feelings I had for you were coming to the surface again. All I could think
about when he held that glass to my throat was that I might not see Matthew
or…you again."
"I should’ve never left you. When they told
me what had happened, I was so mad at myself, but as usual, I took my anger out
on you, and you let me. I really wish you would stop doing that, you used to be
so good at putting me in my place."
"You were mad because of what I let
Gabrielle do...", Nora defended weakly.
Bo sighed and smiled sadly, "No I was upset
that you put yourself in danger, it scared me...I was so afraid that because you
felt you had to protect my feelings that you put yourself in jeopardy and if
anything," his voice cracking, "if you had died and left me to raise our son
alone, I know I never would've been able to forgive myself."
She took her hand and brought it up to his
cheek, "You told me at the station that day that I had to forgive myself, maybe
that's what we need to do, forgive ourselves, and move on, move on towards our
future....together."
Bo smiles, "Together. I think I like the
sound of that..."
“You know, I do too.", pulling him into a
soft kiss, which soon turns passionate. He leads her over to the couch and pulls
her down on top of him.
TBC...